Friendship, to me is the greatest treasure
on earth.
It is the bearer of my pride joy and sanity. Without those
who have contributed to creating who I am today, I would
- well - not be me. My friends give me reason to push on
and try harder, they will posess my undying loyalty, trust,
care, and love (of course assuming that whatever level the
bond goes to, there is the truancy of friendship at the
foundation) For friendship is never selfish, never posessive
or constricting, always uplifting and educational, understanding
and sympathetic, motivational and inspirational, as well
as the best possible medium for entertainment! So I would
like to dedicate a section to them, because they are have
and will be paramountly important to me forever, whether
in memory or activity.
Oh dear, now how
about do I go explaining Cindy? Hrmm, haha. Well the simple version
of it, sounds something like - this is my oldest and best friend.
I've known her since the 5th grade, and we've been through so much
together, its insanity I tell you.
She's also a crakhead - dont let anyone attempt to convince you otherwise.
She doesn't do much other than make herself happy, as well as never
failing to astound the rest of us, but thats what we love about her.
She is also very lazy (that was for your own good) she is also very
horny and I MEAN IT!! She also smokes too much! On top of
all that she is a loyal lovable and amusing (not to mention cute as
hell). Although she has a tendency to be annoyingly spiteful sometimes.
I definitely owe my life to this girl, but she owes me hers too! (oh
yes, I fell asleep twice!! Hehe, ok I wont get into it)
In the end, Cin never fails to rock in her own little Cindy way. I
can't wait to see who has to start wearing depends first. (I bet its
her! mwahaha)
Little Nubby, guess what? Bill sucks! (oh yes you do) But other
than that, bill is my best friend, and occupies a nice cozy warm
spot in my world. I've known him for many moons, and my how hes
grown! (Are you blushing yet?) Bill is a full blooded Aquarius -
and I know he's making a face of disapproval as I make that statement.
I consider him a straightedge realist, who calls it like he sees
it. I love bill because he always listens to my incoherent babbling
no matter what the topic (even if there are some topics he just
refuses to give any input on) He's also a class-a wiseass with an
incomparable sense of humor.
One day I hope Bill realizes that - even though he thinks he "knows
what it's all about" (after all - you've seen it all.. Haven't
you?) that he still hasn't lived it all. Rationalizing? Fine.
Contemplating? Sure. Perceiving? Maybe. Experiencing? I don't think
so. I hope he doesn't condemn himself to living vicariously through
the world around him. Sometimes you just gotta take the plunge into
uncharted waters. (hehe go ahead Bill, I dare you ;P)
I know Bill will be happy with the life he makes for himself eventually,
mostly due to the fact that he propagates for the more simplistic
ideals in life. Although ironically enough, his energy gravitates
towards the more complex (assuredly not by choice - lol do you like
my analysis doctor?) Well enough explanations of Bill's enigma.
(I'm afraid I'm getting far too deep) But he knows I'll always be
there to defend, support, motivate, and care for him. (I could go
on, but do you really want me to?)
Jelly is someone I miss a lot... No matter how many confusing,
complicated, sometimes funny, yet always realistic, paradoxes of
life we would run into, we were always able to formulate a most
intelligible explanation for it's existence in our lives. And her
mom's lentil pasta will satisfy even the most picky palette! *YuMMM*
I know when I look up and am awestruck by the beautiful serenity
of the glowing moon hung among the scattered stars, that she sees
the same awesomeness I do. There isn't any logical (or illogical
for that matter) aspect of creation, manifestation, corruption,
evolution, emotion etc. that me and my Jelly couldn't talk about.
She is also one of the most attractive females, from the in and
out, that I have the pleasure of knowing.
I am hoping one day that me and the females I've been separated
from will come back together, to once again conduct the uplifting
energy we once did. But everyone grows up, and older, and I guess
you just accept it when those you care about head in other directions.
I do miss them a lot though, and I think about them frequently.
Maybe thats my mistake for not being able to put my attachment to
them behind me. Ah well, you live and learn right?
First and foremost, becca is a full fledged Scorpio, no doubt about
that. She is also another female who I could talk about the world
to. She's a very magnetic soul, and understands the depths of the
human psyche as well as me and Jelly do. She kind of has a streak
of manipulation or selfishness in her (but then again, who doesn't)
but I don't get to see or talk to her much anymore. Maybe shes just
off looking for herself. Either way I'm sure she'll get what it
is shes looking for.
Me and Bec have had some priceless moments together, that are very
important to me. She used to be someone I knew I could talk about
whatever was going on in my head about, and she'd not only understand,
but admit the same odd mental patterns as I was having! We are wonderful
at conducting energy together, as long as it's for a good cause.
I am hoping one day that me and the females I've been separated
from will come back together, to once again conduct the uplifting
energy we once did. But everyone grows up, and older, and I guess
you just accept it when those you care about head in other directions.
I do miss them a lot though, and I think about them frequently.
Maybe thats my mistake for not being able to put my attachment to
them behind me. Ah well, you live and learn right?
And to complete
my female soul companion circle, here is my lil Darci. She is by far
the awesomest girl I could have ever hoped to have met at school.
We've spent many a night, discussing politics, religion, sex, paradoxes,
magic, philosophy, ecology, astrology, and so on. Not to mention she
is my ULTIMATE DANCE PARTNER! (We just dont stop!) I love her energy,
she is the most adventurous Cancer I know! (but her moon is in Aries
;P) Not to mention one of the most innocently sweet girls I've ever
met. And she doesn't litter! And agrees with me about the environment!!
OH THANKYOU DARCI, no one ever listens to me about littering.
Me and Darci share a lot of the same emotions and viewpoints on the
world, which makes the time we spend together awesome, whether we
are hitting up a party, or breaking into the most expensive restaurants
in Manhattan! And even more amazing is how our in depth conversations
seem to spark and come to life and fill the both of us with such positive
energy to share with the rest of the world. We not only uplift eachother,
we sky rocket eachother to the stars!! I am so glad to know that -
as I was hoping - she is on her way into the world of love, and with
a guy that couldn't be more right for her! Darci and Daniel are such
a cute couple and I hope they have a long road ahead of them.
Darci has honestly become one of my best friends ever. And I don't
mean best friend just because she and I are close. She is one of my
most prized friends because of the purity and good intention I can
see in her heart. Her soul radiates love from every angle, and she
has been such a wonderful friend to me. I am hoping with all my heart
I never lose sight of this girl, although even if I did, I know I'll
see her again on the other side of the rainbow.
Oooh, I miss Stacey
very much. Stacey was my lifesaver in High School. No matter how hard
I'd push people away (if you were me you would understand why I did
such a thing) she never gave up on me. And by senior year, we were
inseparable. We've had so much fun together! Shea Stadium, Central
Park, the sea wall, richmond park, Chris's apt, my dad's house, oh
so many times of good *CLEAN* fun haha!
Then Stacey had to move to PA, where she is now. But that doesn't
mean we've lost touch at all. I still talk to her almost everyday
and look forward to her phonecalls, even though they are almost always
about her poor excuse of a boyfriend. Sorry babe, I had to say it.
But Stacey is coming back one day... I hope, I love her to pieces,
she is the most affectionate girl you could ever dream of having around,
not to mention a crapload of fun!
I'm very glad
that Raph is back in my life. Hes an old dear friend of the dozo years,
and I've been hanging out with him again recently. He's going through
a rocky (and immature) relationship right now, and all my comforting
love goes out to him. Even if its his own submissive libra helpless
fault he puts up with it.
I kind of feel that me and Raph have a pretty special bond, regardless
of what happened to our friendship in the past. He is someone I can
vent to (and gee I did that a lot in high school) and I don't have
many people I do that with. And he knows I'm always there to help
him out in any situation. Sometimes I wish he had a little more faith
in his good abilities though. But I love him! Him and his whole nuttyhoodie
crew, and *phew* atleast morgan doesn't hang around anymore.
Ah, hehe little
Danielson. Amazingly enough, he is one of the only guys I have found
that can get as philosophical and metaphysical as me and the girls
can. Not to mention that I've found someone I can talk computer and
design to, and actually be understood, as well as inspired, as well
as provide motivation! Although recently I've not been able to spend
as much time with him as I used to. Sometimes I believe I have this
weird connection to Danny's family. I never met such a cool family
as theirs, and I'm very envious. Good Brazilian blood (and damn proud
of it!) not to mention that they all exude this mystic quality about
them, which is quite fascinating. Hes also an amazing artist, in both
computer stuff and traditional art. His 3D work is incredible!
I hope Danny doesn't fall from my circle, because I care about him
a lot, and we make a great design team together! Not to mention he's
very perceptive about the world around him, which I admire. Even if
sometimes he is too much of a realist. Keep up the good work Danny
and you'll get there.
Daniel is someone
fairly new to my inner circle, but I am glad to have him there! He
is a tru blue Leo at heart, and is one of the coolest guys I have
the opportunity of knowing! I met him through Danny and we've become
really good friends in a short time. Perhaps its all the insane adventures
we've sought out and conquered with victory!! (Oh my god my heart
was pounding out of my chest at shea!!)
Hes also courting my lil Darci, and I don't think I could have conceptualized
a better pair. I don't know two better people deserving of the best
love has to offer. Luckily enough, they also both possess the best
love has to offer! Daniel is deeply spiritual (and I LOVE THAT!) feircly
loyal, strong, adventurous, not to mention incredibly hot! Hes also
got the discipline of a marine, and a passion for life that I haven't
found in many people. Strangley enough, we're a lot alike in many
ways, which is really cool cos I haven't met many people who just
'got me' like he has. Hes 100% awesome in my book, now if only he'd
stop pimping me out to his relatives =P
Me and Marat have
had some awesome moments together, and although I don't talk to him
anymore, I'll always remember how cool we once were. Ski trips, hotel
rooms, the gardens (Antons bday was seriously funny) Lambda parties,
fucked up dogs, sleep overs, gazing at the moon talking about life,
helping eachother with homework, eating weird shit at odd hours, etc.
As well as many awesome theory conversations in car rides home. But
people come and go for a reason, and I'm slowly learning to accept
it graciously when they go. No matter how much it may hurt.
Raffi is one of
the first people I started hanging out with in the dorms, and who
I live with now and he totally kicks a$$!! Raffi amazes me because
of how laid back, easy going, and hilarious he is while maintaining
his depth of character and intelligence! I will never forget my little
Halloween pup! I absolutely love Raffi, hes a goofy, go-with-the-flow,
ball of 24/7 fun. As well as a good friend to talk to. Somehow I am
hoping Raffi makes it through poly with me, because I would miss him
so much if he left! But Raffi, no more 4am drumming on the 13th floor!!
And clean up my sheets!!!! Hahaha Raffi you rock.
Lonny is the one
of the most perfectly magical, and beautiful from the inside out,
souls I've ever met. He was there for me at such critical points in
my past, as I was there for him. He is the very first person I ever
had a seriously deep theoretical philosophical conversations with,
and he helped open my eyes and let me plunge into the depths of his.
Lonny was the most evolved spirit I ever had a chance to spend time
with. I miss him so much, and there isnt a day that hasn't gone by
that I don't think of him. Sunrises and sunsets at the bluff, car
rides, city visits, his voice, his hugs, long talks, smoking, his
ferrets, his mom, his room!! His imagination, his heart, his smile..
Everything.
I know it sounds weird, but a part of him will be with me until the
day I am able to be face to face with him again. He was able to touch
the soul of anyone, if he so desired. If not by his incomparable wiseass
jokes, his perfect charm, or his brilliant imagination, then by the
bottomless depths of his soul. I have never met anyone who has come
close to the enigma contained in his soul, I love him so much (but
its ok.. I talk to him all the time,) I don't know who I'd be without
him in my life, and I will never forget him. He is as alive in my
heart as he is in the hearts of the others who loved him so much.
I wish I still hung out with Kristen and Bob and Jamie, and I know
that Lonny holds an unsurpable place in their hearts, as well as they
in his. I miss them a lot and think about them a lot too. What I wouldn't
give to see him again this lifetime.. Toebeards and footstaches!!
Kristen and those damn hotdogs, (or dixhills boys) or valentines poems...
I hope he will wait for us to catch up with him.
This is my beautiful
celestial sister. I met this girl when I was 16 years old and she
totally took care of me the whole first summer I met her. I was at
her house literally every day, and I really miss that. Jenna is creative,
very intelligent, talented, devoted, caring, sweet, charismatic, and
mystical. Although she has some deep currents of insecurity and self
doubt (but don't we all) as well as she isnt exactly what I'd call
the *cleanest* person in the world *wink* (that was for your own good
;P)
She's also an AWESOME DJ!! I watched her turntables go from collecting
dust, to busting out crazy mixes, and I am so damn proud of her!!
I've watched the root spread into a sturdy foundation and bloom with
a type of passion I haven't seen matched easily elsewhere. Hopefully
Jenna and I will travel through the stars together, watching out for
eachother and supporting eachother when we need that little bit of
extra female energy. Hehe I'm her little Bean =D
Ok, well granted
he's my ex, but thats okay, even though we don't talk much anymore
I still consider him a good friend. This boy has enough dirt on me
to plant a farm. Hes one of the first people I became good friends
with when I moved to the city, and was my raving partner for a very
long time. He may be shy at first but once your inside his heart,
there is no need to worry about getting the boot. Hes has grown up
in so many ways since I first met him, hes now (usually) one of the
most sweet and affectionate guys I've ever met, with a heart for true
loyalty.
He's also a complete Capricorn. Slow and steady is his motto. I really
hope Chris find what hes looking for in life, because he has a heart
of gold and a brain to match. I just wish he'd stop hanging out with
all those brainless superficial people, cos he has this ability to
adapt to whatever crowd hes around. But oh well, you can't win em'
all.
Aaron rocks. There
isn't much other way to describe it. Hes sweet, very hunky (haha),
a complete ditz, and cool as shit. Hes a Gemini, and thats so cool,
cos hes got a twin brother Matt! (Who is also cool as shit, although
sometimes a LITTLE TOO CRAZY) The only thing that worries me about
Aaron is his double life as a loan shark, and all those WEIRD sexual
confrontations he gets himself into. Be good Aaron, no more blessing
people's medication, and take that gross icon off you AIM!
Here is a shout
out to all those awesome balls of fun that I love to hangout with
when I'm out on Long Island:
Ethan, John, Katie, Jamie, Michelle, Allison, Kristen, Timmy, Sean,
Brian, Victor, Lil Melissa, Dave & Melissa, Bobby, Elyse, G and
Bill, Genie, and those punks from Smithtown *wink*
And then a hi to all those people who once were very important to
me, but somehow I've lost touch with, Nikki, Rainy, Nadine, Elena,
Dix Hills crew, Matt, Mike, Pappason, Monica, Zach, Jamie, Lee, Rick,
Corey, Bryan, Brian.
These big brothers
and sisters are people I am eternally grateful for. For all those
fun filled sleepless nights of partying!! These people have been such
great influences on me, and I don't even think they realize that.
They were my first and foremost city crew and I really get sad sometimes
when I think of how most of them have grown up and away. But I love
them all, and they all have a very special place in my memory.
Everyone in #Rave (efnet) Scott, Josh, Piri, Bev, Steve, Cristian,
Dan, Tiff, Joker, Paul, Dan, Kevin, Dave, Heather, Jessie, Elena and
the rest of the Internet crew.
I am giving all
these cool guys a big shout. They are the better frat at poly, and
completely fun to be around. Special hi to Simon, Marco, Kevin, Zhanni,
Sam, Steve, (raf of course too). Are you a cute female? C'mon I'll
take you to a party, you'll love em. Hehehe. Keep rockin guys.
I'm giving a shout
to all the cool people I've hung out with in the LIU Dorms, both this
year and last (not like they'd ever see this page) but I have had
some really cool times with these silly alcho-suckas.
SPECIAL LOVE to Jon Raf Chris and Rich cos they are the chillest guys
in the dorms, and awesome roomies
as well as special love to Michele (because she is so strong and positive)
- and Darci (oh you know I love you already) - Amanda (cos shes incredibly
Chill and is an awesome artist) - Alex (cos he can be amazing when
he wants to be) - Jenn and Melissa (my old roomies who still gets
no sleep) - Kelly (Who is also the shit) - Kyle (even though hes not
here anymore) Megan (her too) Kieran, Kerri, Marc, Kim, Ronnie, Ali,
Gloria, Stu, Josh, John, and anyone else I'm missing.
